Notes

Away from the office, the forces that knuckle you under are far more nebulous.

https://archive.is/OYNQs

nb

think i’d just keep tithing gpt voice mode for intervention purposes

for all the ungodly weird 5hr-ish sleep thing lately, guess i should be content with having had the opportunity to see what 4:30 am looks like and the space for quiet, if eerie, clarity

就不知道是 Notion 带起来的歪风吧现在什么玩意都要强制自动给文档标题贴一个 emoji 又丑又莫名其妙你们哪来那么多表情呢我就请问

some recent 嘴替 moments

one thing i like about textshots is that they are, despite being ambiguous and contextless by design, snug vessels for the mind’s “vibes,” which are not easily captured by, say, a more concrete and substantial journal entry but can still be instantly recalled by a vaguely related excerpt taken long ago

[T]he self-cure becomes a problem, in the obvious sense that the problem of the alcoholic is not alcohol but sobriety. https://archive.is/doCRw

记的都啥玩意

吃什么吃的吃什么能治？

https://www.henrikkarlsson.xyz/p/modular-life-meaningful-work

也是信了一次 BookTok https://archive.is/uRZgo

1+ year later and still processing the way my feature flags and kernel parameters were scrambled that i could trace to nowhere but thai food

life moves in unpredictable directions like, don’t rush to speed up if the guy cycling in front of you lifts his bottom; he might just be adjusting for a fart

funny how my morning exercise routine isn’t driven by willpower but by the lack of it, which peaks at 7a, fades immediately, and is nearly gone by noon, after when any cardio feels like torture: that’s why i’m desperate to get it done early, no matter what, and can get frantic when something gets in the way 🫠

always greener on the other side https://archive.org/details/portablehannahar00aren/page/13/mode/1up

https://archive.org/details/hannah-arendt-love-and-st.-augustine/page/96

以前给 nyt 交钱是为了新闻 现在是为了背单词和沙拉做法 🙃

timely booster shot before 回老家

https://aeon.co/essays/i-am-a-better-therapist-since-i-let-go-of-therapeutic-theory https://photo.weibo.com/h5/repost/reppic_id/1022:230796c7c2e9f0ba87312bd75e8f91eb149178

my beef with pop psychologies is how recklessly pundits diagnose with terms that can sound accusatory and stigmatizing to laypersons without offering more context and reassurance—a manipulative narration per se as though their theoretical importance was fed on the denial of patients’ wholeness and autonomy. people will be fine living with their $syndrome and $deficiency; thank you very much.

https://lareviewofbooks.org/article/a-place-not-a-refuge/

还会背 human beings strive for individuality but are also intimidated by options

去年唯一一段没有过耳就忘的播客了 手打 transcript 以示吃了这碗鸡汤 | Chioke, Grain of Sand https://www.everythingisalive.com/episodes/chioke-grain-of-sand

called home recently and had some chit-chat with the lady before being informed of a significant medical development in the older generation, and she was like, i think i’m doing a good job staying organized: look how i still managed to chit-chat, hahahaha. and i was like, yes madam but this is not a staring contest and you’re allowed to blink? and confirmed that this family does seem to have an inherited pattern of compulsive, sometimes performative, composure as a coping mechanism